Yes, I know, I'm not really overly consistent at this blogging thing, I really try to be. I lay there at night in my bed and think "I should really get up and write something on my blog since I can't sleep" and then I roll over. Anywho...here's what has gone down in the past few days.
I think last time I posted on here was after Saturday night of a week or two ago, so I'll give up the horrible news that my best friends dog died Tuesday morning and she was, and still is, devastated. Though if she keeps her mind off of it she doesn't cry. She found Daisy, her 9 year old Yorkshire Terrier, in the laundry room lying in her own puke. Daisy was never really a healthy dog to begin with, she had almost all the things wrong with her that a pure bred Yorkie can have wrong with them. They had to take out all of her teeth a few years ago, and she never could keep her tongue in her mouth after that. Audrey's trying to hold it together, and she's doing pretty good.
Other than that Jack is kind of freaking out because we're all going away to camp in a week and he's going to be left all alone. Except for the people that he used to hang out with, but all they do is drink, and he doesn't want to fall into that again, were he's drinking everynight just to be drunk. He's come to realize that he's kind of an alcoholic, which at 18 can't be to good. So he's feeling a lot of stress about other stuff right now as well. Poor boy.
And I know things about other people. I just still don't know what to do about Lacy. I just don't. I mean, I don't know that I can really prove she's been stretching the truth without involving everyone in it and then she's going to feel like we're all attacking her. Gah, what to do? I wish I had all the answers and 20-20 foresight so I could look at all the possible outcomes of a situation and then i would know if it was worth it. Or at least plan accordingly.
In other news, Jack has decided to invite Grahm to the next Pt. party...this secretly makes me want to scream in fear and excitement...I don't know what to do, I don't know what this means...I'm afraid to see him in a social setting because then i'll have to be social and I'm not really social at parties, I'm just the person that ends up helping everyone into bed or to the bathroom...I think Jack is doing it on purpose because he knows I like Grahm. It's scary to have people try to help you with your love life. It's scary to have people that care that much.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Did you guys say you wanted your car back or you wanted it impounded?
So...tonight was very horribly drama filled kind of. The night started out pleasant enough with all of us just chillin' in Audrey's room and playing guitar while Audrey was out talking to Vanessa. Nessa had to talk to her about what went down with her and Eric and how she didn't like it at all and she wanted to sort it all out. Later after Nessa came over Bryce, Jack, Danelle, and Barrett came over. None of them like Eric and this was made apparrent through out the night. Eric eventually left feeling bad for him, and Lacy left to because she was feeling bad for him (and hadn't realized that she had told Bryce it was okay to harass him, which I did as well since it would allow him to let off some much needed steam instead of having a full out fight)
So that was the whole night and Audrey was stressing out. I think her and Jack might be a little argh with eachother. I hope they are both okay. And I hope that they can work through this and be okay. All of this causes me some stress. Though I'm getting better at not letting it cause me stress and just trying to run around and decrease stress in everyone else. Of course there are people who increase the stress, such as whenever Jack and Danelle are together and talking about Eric they both start to get very angry and I try to defuse them both, but it's a lot harder with two of them than just one of them.
So that's the deal about it. I don't know how it's all going to go down this summer, it's really going to be a huge stress on Audrey. I hope I can help her with it, mostly I hope she lets me help her with it. **Sigh** she is one of my best friends...
So that was the whole night and Audrey was stressing out. I think her and Jack might be a little argh with eachother. I hope they are both okay. And I hope that they can work through this and be okay. All of this causes me some stress. Though I'm getting better at not letting it cause me stress and just trying to run around and decrease stress in everyone else. Of course there are people who increase the stress, such as whenever Jack and Danelle are together and talking about Eric they both start to get very angry and I try to defuse them both, but it's a lot harder with two of them than just one of them.
So that's the deal about it. I don't know how it's all going to go down this summer, it's really going to be a huge stress on Audrey. I hope I can help her with it, mostly I hope she lets me help her with it. **Sigh** she is one of my best friends...
Saturday, June 11, 2005
It's not really a party til someone's foaming at the mouth
I've had a good start to the weekend how about you all out in the intarweb? Today Nate and I jammed on the acoustic electric guitars for a while it was really a good time. I gave him my other capo because I didn't really want it, what do I need two of them for?
My garden is gorgeous. I named my zuchinni plant Zeus. It's getting pretty big, and today I planted the cucumbers. I think I need a group name for all of the bush beans. My big tomato plant (the one that grows big tomatoes, because it's definitely not the biggest) is now named Norton and I gave him some fertilizer today because he needs to catch up to the other two plants. I have little Grape tomatoes already, as well as little grapes on the grape vines. As for the apples there are so many of them on most of the trees that they are already falling off and they're not ripe at all. However, there are no cherries at all because the tree bloomed to early and got frosted a couple of times. Poor cherries. The spinach and lettuce are good, thought I think the spinach it probably close to done. Also my pepper plants looked a little under the weather, they're not as big as I think they should be, so I gave them a little fertilizer with their water. It was good for them, now I am thinking I'm going to climb into my bed and sleep in tomorrow. Mmmmm, sleep.
My garden is gorgeous. I named my zuchinni plant Zeus. It's getting pretty big, and today I planted the cucumbers. I think I need a group name for all of the bush beans. My big tomato plant (the one that grows big tomatoes, because it's definitely not the biggest) is now named Norton and I gave him some fertilizer today because he needs to catch up to the other two plants. I have little Grape tomatoes already, as well as little grapes on the grape vines. As for the apples there are so many of them on most of the trees that they are already falling off and they're not ripe at all. However, there are no cherries at all because the tree bloomed to early and got frosted a couple of times. Poor cherries. The spinach and lettuce are good, thought I think the spinach it probably close to done. Also my pepper plants looked a little under the weather, they're not as big as I think they should be, so I gave them a little fertilizer with their water. It was good for them, now I am thinking I'm going to climb into my bed and sleep in tomorrow. Mmmmm, sleep.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
The Aforementioned Eric Rant
So, I mentioned earlier that I would be ranting at some point about Eric and that whole situation. So let's start at the very very beginning.
We all really got to know Eric our first year at camp Horizon. He seemed like a great guy, he was funny, in a kind of a mean way, but funny as long as it wasn't directed at you, y'know. So, it went the same way that the rest of the relationship with the guys went, we were all really close, Eric still made inapropriate jokes at people, but not to us for the most part. As time went on he decided to pick on Krystal, he made fun of her more and more. She put up with this like a good sport and most of the other guys made fun of her a bit to, I think at one point it did go to far, and it felt like she was bearing the brunt of all of the guys teasing. This was about the time when Eric and Audrey started having their make-out sessions. It didn't take more than a few weeks for everyone to know what was going on, but Eric still never tried to form anything more concrete with her, even though Audrey kept hoping for it. Finally, that ended and things started to get weird between Audrey and Eric and he stopped coming around so much anymore. Everytime he came to hang out he'd make cutting remarks to Audrey that really hurt her, because Audrey still cared about him and hoped that maybe he would talk to her, but that never happened. Then over the summer, our second year at camp, Audrey met another boy who she thought she might like, he was sweet and pretty cute and had come up from Florida, but the boys didn't like him, because they still in some part considered Audrey to be connected to Eric in some way. They ostracized him and made things basically miserable for Audrey by not speaking to her, meanwhile this boy tried to play Krystal and Audrey against eachother, which eventually backfired with neither of them liking him like that and now we all joke about him, but still, it put tension into the group and that was basically the splitting apart of what it had been. Eric kept hanging out with us less and less and when he did come his remarks became more and more cutting towards everyone. In about September of last year, Audrey met another boy, named Jack, they made out once or twice during our drunken debauchery in September, and eventually, Jack asked her to be his girlfriend, this made Audrey SO happy, and Jack treated her (and still does) like a queen. But this kind of made it come into Eric's mind that he should come and hang out with us on occasion. When he showed up he was totally inappropriate, touching her in ways that a friend wouldn't touch, emphasizing subtle claims of ownership, doing the things that boys do when they want to mark territory that they've want to say "I've been there, whatever you're doing, I've already done it and there's nothing you can do about it" Jack definitely did not appreciate it at all. Jack felt threatened, no one had told him about the thing between Audrey and Eric and he wasn't sure he could deal with that. Now everytime we hang out with Eric it seems that he is purposefully aggravating Jack. Jack has a bit problem with Eric (more than a little bit of a problem actually) because he doesn't think that Eric is respectful of women in general. Now there may be some more stuff that has gone on there that I don't know about. Now a few days ago Eric went on a 'walk in the park' with one of Jack's best friends recent ex-girlfriends (something that no one's really sure is over yet) and I don't know if that means you know, just a walk in the park, or if it means something else entirely (knowing Eric something else entirely is more likely) and I don't think Jack's friend knows, but I know some people know who aren't to happy about it, and these people don't have any problem beating the shit out of Eric, or any great love of Audrey ( not that they don't like her) that will stop them from beating the shit out of him...and, I personally, don't think I care to stop them. When Eric is around I just don't feel comfortable, I feel like anytime I open my mouth it's an invitation to be attacked by him. So...I'm just trying to help everyone sort out how they feel about it. Jack would love it if Audrey would severe all ties with him. But Audrey feels some kind of obligation to stay friends with him and hasn't so far every brought herself to talk to him about the issues...
so that's it...I wish I had an un-biased source that I could go to and explain this all to, just so they could look at it with an unprejudiced eye and tell me if what I shoudl really tell people...gah...drama
We all really got to know Eric our first year at camp Horizon. He seemed like a great guy, he was funny, in a kind of a mean way, but funny as long as it wasn't directed at you, y'know. So, it went the same way that the rest of the relationship with the guys went, we were all really close, Eric still made inapropriate jokes at people, but not to us for the most part. As time went on he decided to pick on Krystal, he made fun of her more and more. She put up with this like a good sport and most of the other guys made fun of her a bit to, I think at one point it did go to far, and it felt like she was bearing the brunt of all of the guys teasing. This was about the time when Eric and Audrey started having their make-out sessions. It didn't take more than a few weeks for everyone to know what was going on, but Eric still never tried to form anything more concrete with her, even though Audrey kept hoping for it. Finally, that ended and things started to get weird between Audrey and Eric and he stopped coming around so much anymore. Everytime he came to hang out he'd make cutting remarks to Audrey that really hurt her, because Audrey still cared about him and hoped that maybe he would talk to her, but that never happened. Then over the summer, our second year at camp, Audrey met another boy who she thought she might like, he was sweet and pretty cute and had come up from Florida, but the boys didn't like him, because they still in some part considered Audrey to be connected to Eric in some way. They ostracized him and made things basically miserable for Audrey by not speaking to her, meanwhile this boy tried to play Krystal and Audrey against eachother, which eventually backfired with neither of them liking him like that and now we all joke about him, but still, it put tension into the group and that was basically the splitting apart of what it had been. Eric kept hanging out with us less and less and when he did come his remarks became more and more cutting towards everyone. In about September of last year, Audrey met another boy, named Jack, they made out once or twice during our drunken debauchery in September, and eventually, Jack asked her to be his girlfriend, this made Audrey SO happy, and Jack treated her (and still does) like a queen. But this kind of made it come into Eric's mind that he should come and hang out with us on occasion. When he showed up he was totally inappropriate, touching her in ways that a friend wouldn't touch, emphasizing subtle claims of ownership, doing the things that boys do when they want to mark territory that they've want to say "I've been there, whatever you're doing, I've already done it and there's nothing you can do about it" Jack definitely did not appreciate it at all. Jack felt threatened, no one had told him about the thing between Audrey and Eric and he wasn't sure he could deal with that. Now everytime we hang out with Eric it seems that he is purposefully aggravating Jack. Jack has a bit problem with Eric (more than a little bit of a problem actually) because he doesn't think that Eric is respectful of women in general. Now there may be some more stuff that has gone on there that I don't know about. Now a few days ago Eric went on a 'walk in the park' with one of Jack's best friends recent ex-girlfriends (something that no one's really sure is over yet) and I don't know if that means you know, just a walk in the park, or if it means something else entirely (knowing Eric something else entirely is more likely) and I don't think Jack's friend knows, but I know some people know who aren't to happy about it, and these people don't have any problem beating the shit out of Eric, or any great love of Audrey ( not that they don't like her) that will stop them from beating the shit out of him...and, I personally, don't think I care to stop them. When Eric is around I just don't feel comfortable, I feel like anytime I open my mouth it's an invitation to be attacked by him. So...I'm just trying to help everyone sort out how they feel about it. Jack would love it if Audrey would severe all ties with him. But Audrey feels some kind of obligation to stay friends with him and hasn't so far every brought herself to talk to him about the issues...
so that's it...I wish I had an un-biased source that I could go to and explain this all to, just so they could look at it with an unprejudiced eye and tell me if what I shoudl really tell people...gah...drama
Throw your...Heart to me...
SO...I've decided that the reason that I can't sleep is because my mind is much to full of this entire weekend and all the things that have run through it like a dump truck. So let me start at the beginning...
FRIDAY
this day started off with me going to Spanish and then skipping the rest of my classes to come home and get ready to go to Sarah's Birthday party out at the family's Birch Bay property. It was pretty cool, we got there, set up, made my mom and her friend drinks, went back because we forgot stuff. Around 7pm other people finally started to show up, a few of sarah's friends were first, Kat and Noah, and then Amber, and Aaron, Finally my friends showed up at about 7:45, later than they said they would be as usual, but there none the less. Lacy couldn't stay the night as originally planned because her dad needed the car in the morning...so Krystal, Mary, and I took the back room of the cabin and left Audrey and Jack the front room. Jack's so funny he actually had to make the bed. Then Kat and Noah invaded and Jack came and found me because they were messing up all his precious work on making the bed (not that it really lasted anyway) We all ended up in bed kind of early around midnight or so, because, well, the week just kind of wipes you, y'know?
SATURDAY
So, we started off Saturday morning by waking up at 10:30 and making some delicious Hershey's waffles in the waffle maker and then going and jumping on everyone else to wake them up. I didn't sleep very well, but a lot of people apparently slept like rocks...it was way to hot in the cabin for me because Krystal insisted upon having the heat turned on...crazy girl...at about 11:30 Audrey, Jack, and Krystal decided to head home because we were going to head out to Pt. Roberts later that day to have a party at Barrett's house. About an hour later I decided to do the same thing, because I was in desperate need of a shower. I lazed around the house all afternoon, until 7pm rolled around and I went to meet everyone at Dairy Queen to head out to the Pt. we got up into canada and over down to Pt. Roberts (which is still WA, you just have to go through canada to get there, it's all very strange and you have to go through the border twice) we went to the store and bought some beer and bitch beer and then to Barrett's we went. It's a really pretty little light blue beach house, that's about a block from the beach, the garage has been turned into "Barrett's Hang Out Spot" and the rest of the house is cute and his mom's (though she wasn't home so we got full range of the place) when we got there, Barrett was talking to this cute little German lady who was like "I don't support drinking, but here's a 20 to go buy yourselves a case" and "I don't smoke pot, but if you could make me some brownies I'd really appreciate it" It was hilarious, and then she told us a bunch of stories that went no where, and then she left. It was cute. So we started drinking about when we got there, I shot-raced Danelle and almost won, she beat me by a hair, but after that I stopped drinking to keep an eye on everyone else. Lacy was busy flirting with guys in the hot tub, and I wandered up the stairs, and talked to Jack about a bunch of stuff that was bugging him (how Audrey's dad can't see how much he loves Audrey and is obsessed with Audrey marrying Nate, and how much he can't stand Eric and just wants to kick his ass and is probably going to at some point) then he and Danelle went on a walk so he could cool down, he was probably in the worst temper than I've ever seen Jack in. The hot tub people pressured Audrey to getting in with them, she got out almost right after she got in, and while we were hiding in the living room we heard one of the guys say "I think it's time for Jack to fly away, and Audrey to come to me!" after that we decided that Audrey shouldn't go in without Jack. At about 1:15, Bryce and I (Bryce was playing parent with me) decided it would probably be best for Lacy to get out (the same guy who was hitting on Audrey was starting to really hit on her) but we couldn't get her out, finally she had to go to the bathroom, and then I just wouldn't let her get back in, I told her she could go in after 20 minutes, if she promised to only spend 15 minutes in there and then get dressed, 14 minutes later she was nearly passed out sitting by the hot tub, so Bryce and I got her up and put her into bed with her bathing suit on, then we went down the road to try and collect Mickey, but he wouldn't let us, so we left him there to wander back on his own, later on they all decided to dance again, and I just laughed my ass off because now the guy who had been trying for Audrey and Lacy was after Danelle, then Barrett and Mickey decided to have a rap-off, meanwhile this guy goes and sits in a chair and pretty much passes out with his eyes open, so Barrett totally gets served in the rap-off and the start a sing off, the guy stumbles outside and passes out on the pavement, Jack goes and gets him and puts him on a couch, Barrett completely wins the sing off and we all drink a little water before we go to bed at 4am sunday morning.
Sunday
Sunday we all end up getting up at about noon, then we head over to this TJ's place for some lunch/breakfast and Jack get's free food (I swear he gets that all the time) and we head home after that back through the border through a half hour wild goose chase in which we get lost, we finally make it back to a spot near the Blaine border crossing and i decided that's it, I'm crossing here, screw going all the way back to Lynden, so I go through Blaine and end up earning my half hour back by making Danelle and Jack wait for us at DQ for half an hour, it was great, after that we all went home and slept because it was about 5pm by the time we got back. Very long weekend
So, that was the adventure that was my weekend...it was good...and lovely, and I think I rather enjoy not being the only parent at a drunken party...it's kind of nice, though apparently Bryce is usually the first one throwing up...he is quite the cute boy, but I've noticed that I find a lot of boys cute lately...I think my next post will be about the Eric situation...that's totally what I should have written my Ann Landers Assignment on...maybe then I'd have a clue as to what to do about the whole thing...I mean, I know what has to be done but...I don't know how to do it in the way that will save the most feelings...gah...I'll explain it all another time...I don't feel quite so full anymore...I think this makes up for the days of not posting
FRIDAY
this day started off with me going to Spanish and then skipping the rest of my classes to come home and get ready to go to Sarah's Birthday party out at the family's Birch Bay property. It was pretty cool, we got there, set up, made my mom and her friend drinks, went back because we forgot stuff. Around 7pm other people finally started to show up, a few of sarah's friends were first, Kat and Noah, and then Amber, and Aaron, Finally my friends showed up at about 7:45, later than they said they would be as usual, but there none the less. Lacy couldn't stay the night as originally planned because her dad needed the car in the morning...so Krystal, Mary, and I took the back room of the cabin and left Audrey and Jack the front room. Jack's so funny he actually had to make the bed. Then Kat and Noah invaded and Jack came and found me because they were messing up all his precious work on making the bed (not that it really lasted anyway) We all ended up in bed kind of early around midnight or so, because, well, the week just kind of wipes you, y'know?
SATURDAY
So, we started off Saturday morning by waking up at 10:30 and making some delicious Hershey's waffles in the waffle maker and then going and jumping on everyone else to wake them up. I didn't sleep very well, but a lot of people apparently slept like rocks...it was way to hot in the cabin for me because Krystal insisted upon having the heat turned on...crazy girl...at about 11:30 Audrey, Jack, and Krystal decided to head home because we were going to head out to Pt. Roberts later that day to have a party at Barrett's house. About an hour later I decided to do the same thing, because I was in desperate need of a shower. I lazed around the house all afternoon, until 7pm rolled around and I went to meet everyone at Dairy Queen to head out to the Pt. we got up into canada and over down to Pt. Roberts (which is still WA, you just have to go through canada to get there, it's all very strange and you have to go through the border twice) we went to the store and bought some beer and bitch beer and then to Barrett's we went. It's a really pretty little light blue beach house, that's about a block from the beach, the garage has been turned into "Barrett's Hang Out Spot" and the rest of the house is cute and his mom's (though she wasn't home so we got full range of the place) when we got there, Barrett was talking to this cute little German lady who was like "I don't support drinking, but here's a 20 to go buy yourselves a case" and "I don't smoke pot, but if you could make me some brownies I'd really appreciate it" It was hilarious, and then she told us a bunch of stories that went no where, and then she left. It was cute. So we started drinking about when we got there, I shot-raced Danelle and almost won, she beat me by a hair, but after that I stopped drinking to keep an eye on everyone else. Lacy was busy flirting with guys in the hot tub, and I wandered up the stairs, and talked to Jack about a bunch of stuff that was bugging him (how Audrey's dad can't see how much he loves Audrey and is obsessed with Audrey marrying Nate, and how much he can't stand Eric and just wants to kick his ass and is probably going to at some point) then he and Danelle went on a walk so he could cool down, he was probably in the worst temper than I've ever seen Jack in. The hot tub people pressured Audrey to getting in with them, she got out almost right after she got in, and while we were hiding in the living room we heard one of the guys say "I think it's time for Jack to fly away, and Audrey to come to me!" after that we decided that Audrey shouldn't go in without Jack. At about 1:15, Bryce and I (Bryce was playing parent with me) decided it would probably be best for Lacy to get out (the same guy who was hitting on Audrey was starting to really hit on her) but we couldn't get her out, finally she had to go to the bathroom, and then I just wouldn't let her get back in, I told her she could go in after 20 minutes, if she promised to only spend 15 minutes in there and then get dressed, 14 minutes later she was nearly passed out sitting by the hot tub, so Bryce and I got her up and put her into bed with her bathing suit on, then we went down the road to try and collect Mickey, but he wouldn't let us, so we left him there to wander back on his own, later on they all decided to dance again, and I just laughed my ass off because now the guy who had been trying for Audrey and Lacy was after Danelle, then Barrett and Mickey decided to have a rap-off, meanwhile this guy goes and sits in a chair and pretty much passes out with his eyes open, so Barrett totally gets served in the rap-off and the start a sing off, the guy stumbles outside and passes out on the pavement, Jack goes and gets him and puts him on a couch, Barrett completely wins the sing off and we all drink a little water before we go to bed at 4am sunday morning.
Sunday
Sunday we all end up getting up at about noon, then we head over to this TJ's place for some lunch/breakfast and Jack get's free food (I swear he gets that all the time) and we head home after that back through the border through a half hour wild goose chase in which we get lost, we finally make it back to a spot near the Blaine border crossing and i decided that's it, I'm crossing here, screw going all the way back to Lynden, so I go through Blaine and end up earning my half hour back by making Danelle and Jack wait for us at DQ for half an hour, it was great, after that we all went home and slept because it was about 5pm by the time we got back. Very long weekend
So, that was the adventure that was my weekend...it was good...and lovely, and I think I rather enjoy not being the only parent at a drunken party...it's kind of nice, though apparently Bryce is usually the first one throwing up...he is quite the cute boy, but I've noticed that I find a lot of boys cute lately...I think my next post will be about the Eric situation...that's totally what I should have written my Ann Landers Assignment on...maybe then I'd have a clue as to what to do about the whole thing...I mean, I know what has to be done but...I don't know how to do it in the way that will save the most feelings...gah...I'll explain it all another time...I don't feel quite so full anymore...I think this makes up for the days of not posting
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