Summer Colds

Happy solstice day everyone! I wish it was a little nicer, but it's definitely nice enough. I may head out to the trampoline in a bit.

I have an awful summer cold. I hate it. It's not so bad on the cold meds but it makes me a little miserable and makes 8 hours shifts truly miserable by the end of them. Ugh, not to mention that all those stupid questions people ask are 10 times more annoying when you're struggling with just trying to get words out of your mouth that don't sound like you've been playing the chubby bunny game.

I need to work on my ukelele song. The first verse is not quite right. It might be right for another song, but not for the song that it is currently attached too. I'm also going to a girls night thing tonight with some girls from high school. That should be interesting and a little nerve racking. Oh well, I'm sure it will be fun!

Mistakes on the part of Nature

I struggle a lot with not feeling like I'm important to people. I don't know why this is. I know it's not true. People don't need to be paying attention to me or invite me to everything for me to feel important, but sometimes, a lot of times, I just tend to feel ignored or left out. I'm of the opinion that it is completely my fault because people really aren't ignoring me that much. I'm just considering every activity without me ignorance and that is not necessarily true. Who wants to spend all of their time around me? I mean, there's no one I particularily want to spend all of my time around. So why do I feel like this? ARGH! It's really very frustrating. I hate it. i'm working on it, but I really don't know how to get better at it. I figure maybe I just need to widen my circle of friends? At the same time some days I just like to have my time to myself and more friends means more time commitments. ugh. Life is confusing. And it makes me crazy. I need to chillax.